Well besides have the first day without the camera man and did no shooting due to the weather it was ok manage to have a very more in depth discussion about what we have to shoot and what other stuff we need....
On the second day which was on Wednesday 14 Jan went very well we did more then expected meeting up with a West Spring Sec School children whom we did the interviews we needed and the whole class jumping and saying WE ARE SINGAPORE ! haha cool stuff =) Then moved to esplanade area and did tons of interview with foreigners and MAN THE LADIES FROM JAPAN was damn hot PHEW i and matt were like loving every minute of the interview !
Went home earlier yesterday but the worse was yet to come... My mum cooked noodles for me and i ate it later at night i GOT food poisoning.. On of the worse VOMITED Out ALL the noodles and crap alot.... Tossed around for hours.....=(
God i hope you will take care of me and forgive the sins cause i really want to change and be your right arm to touch others and bring them to Christ in your glory
Photos will be out very soon during the filming
Thursday, January 15, 2009
Monday, December 29, 2008
X'mas is Over
I have not blogged for so long as i do not have the mood to and also i hate my stuff that i was planning to blog about........... Mostly sad and stupid stuff so ya save the troubles
New friends to me get me excited but soon they will just never chat with me as if i was an outcast to them or like a nerd or something..
Gosh i more or less have given up making new ones since my old ones are leaving me too
Haiz all busy with ARMY WORK STUDIES ! while i am free and lonely.. This feeling never goes away...
Things happened during the few months i did not blogged......
1) Bands stuff still have a few problems but more or less getting better I THINK !
2) Had a church camp where i finally had an experience with God that i will make him proud
3) Had a church outing at my condo which was fun
4) Bonded better with my church mates and see more of them growing
5) Bought new games but no one to play with as usual
Yup people who do not understand me will think alot of stupid stuffs and hate for it which i do not know what i can do
But who cares i never ever had a thought to hurt anyone before at all well maybe for people who are childish and maybe mad or just wanna find trouble with me about my past....
Things i learned if i am able to forgive others about their past others should too so honestly i am sorry but i will not do or say anything further more as i think is better to move on rather then some who just seems to put everything to themselves and love to blame others....
I dunno if i should go army or poly first ! help me !! give me ur comments ! PLEASE =)
New friends to me get me excited but soon they will just never chat with me as if i was an outcast to them or like a nerd or something..
Gosh i more or less have given up making new ones since my old ones are leaving me too
Haiz all busy with ARMY WORK STUDIES ! while i am free and lonely.. This feeling never goes away...
Things happened during the few months i did not blogged......
1) Bands stuff still have a few problems but more or less getting better I THINK !
2) Had a church camp where i finally had an experience with God that i will make him proud
3) Had a church outing at my condo which was fun
4) Bonded better with my church mates and see more of them growing
5) Bought new games but no one to play with as usual
Yup people who do not understand me will think alot of stupid stuffs and hate for it which i do not know what i can do
But who cares i never ever had a thought to hurt anyone before at all well maybe for people who are childish and maybe mad or just wanna find trouble with me about my past....
Things i learned if i am able to forgive others about their past others should too so honestly i am sorry but i will not do or say anything further more as i think is better to move on rather then some who just seems to put everything to themselves and love to blame others....
I dunno if i should go army or poly first ! help me !! give me ur comments ! PLEASE =)
Monday, November 24, 2008
Gosh when holidays are coming !
School have been super boring.... Week in and out... Doing practically NOTHING !
I know i can see how many of you guys going ARE U CRAZY I WANT TO GO SCHOOL AND DO NOTHING ! well trust me when your in my shoe i am so sure you will be super duper BORED !
Gosh just stuck in school use Mac's going online and visiting the same old webby's and cracking my brains for more fun websites to go........
Please help me tell me a list of websites that is fun and enjoyable besides porn.....Geez i am really getting bored of this timetable... Where there is no time table at all actually !! = 0
NO BAND NO MUSIC NO LIFE !!
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
New friends new test
I made new friends i mean like people whom i know for long but recently went out and started to chat abit more than the usual hi how u been? Crap and i do made new friends too....
Cool stuff but still as what i learned in CG that i have to be ready and to lead a good example and be a great testimony.... Well i do think i am mostly when it comes to my goals and dreams hmm... (i think)
I been having mixed feelings GOSH ! and i really do not know why....I think i been sleeping maybe too late and stuff got some crazy things inside my head when i sleep late....
Oh been hooked to Boston Legal recently and i feel so happy when i can watch the whole 5 Seasons free when i used to check the price for the 1st Season was like 89.90... On offer some more can ! Gosh luckily found the website to watch it = )
I think we should all sit down in a bus and just relax do not feel stress and rush to places where you going to go.... Life do not need extra stress.... But i do no mean BE LATE
Monday, November 17, 2008
Sick and still sick
Gosh the past few weeks i got a tiny winy cold and i just ignored it.... And look now i am damn sick ! =)
Oh the past weeks been fun though i am sick enjoyed myself and meet up alot of my old friends like wei peng , jian ming and ravin.. Not to forget clement kok hong wen cai yuan zi yilin alex ronnie & kia leng...
And i start to understand more about myself and gaining abit of confidences along the way..... Now i will try to make things fun and enjoyable when things are getting bad.. =)
I will be more positive which is not like me at all but i gotta try in order to be a good example to others and i too will be so much happier and might just cheer others up !
On church wise ! haha went to church on time and had a nice CG this is the first time i did not feel like gosh when is it going to end i trully learned a lot for that meeting ! Thank you lord for giving me the extra movitation to reach out to others and not to be sad about the results as all this takes time and faith in you ! =)
Band wise i rather quiet but lots of exciting things to look forward for... Song writing was not that bad but we need alot of time to make it a awesome song... We do have the sound and quality to make it as one so i am excited... All we need is the whole band to really do it together ! =) and i believe things would work out better.
Things i felt happy are cheryl my ex girl friend is in a relationship again ! =) so happy for her and wish her all the best and long and lasting relationship.
- Singing wise i think i did improve and i finally got some hints on where i got it wrong and if i practice more i will be doing so so much better.. I will do it =)
-Guitar lessons been well... HMMm quiet haha all students have their self declared holidays or work day ! But maybe Glady's could be learning with her friends! One word ! AWESOME!
=)
Is sure going to be nice seeing her again and teasing her ! hope you will not mind gladys!
Things i do in class when bored !
Count the amount of smileys i post for this blog you can see how happy i am ! =P
Oh the past weeks been fun though i am sick enjoyed myself and meet up alot of my old friends like wei peng , jian ming and ravin.. Not to forget clement kok hong wen cai yuan zi yilin alex ronnie & kia leng...
And i start to understand more about myself and gaining abit of confidences along the way..... Now i will try to make things fun and enjoyable when things are getting bad.. =)
I will be more positive which is not like me at all but i gotta try in order to be a good example to others and i too will be so much happier and might just cheer others up !
On church wise ! haha went to church on time and had a nice CG this is the first time i did not feel like gosh when is it going to end i trully learned a lot for that meeting ! Thank you lord for giving me the extra movitation to reach out to others and not to be sad about the results as all this takes time and faith in you ! =)
Band wise i rather quiet but lots of exciting things to look forward for... Song writing was not that bad but we need alot of time to make it a awesome song... We do have the sound and quality to make it as one so i am excited... All we need is the whole band to really do it together ! =) and i believe things would work out better.
Things i felt happy are cheryl my ex girl friend is in a relationship again ! =) so happy for her and wish her all the best and long and lasting relationship.
- Singing wise i think i did improve and i finally got some hints on where i got it wrong and if i practice more i will be doing so so much better.. I will do it =)
-Guitar lessons been well... HMMm quiet haha all students have their self declared holidays or work day ! But maybe Glady's could be learning with her friends! One word ! AWESOME!
=)
Is sure going to be nice seeing her again and teasing her ! hope you will not mind gladys!
Things i do in class when bored !
Count the amount of smileys i post for this blog you can see how happy i am ! =P
Friday, October 31, 2008
Life is tough and i am backsliding.....
I tried and tried and i think is all my own thoughts that are drowning and draining my strength i have in life.....
Church... Friends... Band..... School.... Everything, at times i need people's acceptance but i learned a lot.... That things will not turn better if you just seek for humans acceptances in life as what you get in here is just only sins and lies. I need God but i can't reach to him when i always need him.
At times i feel like a failure that people whom i reached out or really want to fellowship just walk away. The damage i done is just simply i did nothing to continue that fellowship.... and i feel i disappointed God. I lost a lot of the excitement i have before. Cause i do not think i am good enough to fellowship any one anymore due to my sins and my emptiness.
I cry to God but when he is there i forgotten my cries but hungry for the blessing.... I hate this and i want to be a servant of God where people will not only learn but believe in themselves.
I think my life is just like a frog in a well, a frog who talks to anything or anyone who looked into it... Thinking the world out there is so much fun.. When your in the well you see the same thing and you feel all alone... But when your out there too long you want to be make the world be like the well you been staying for years... Feeling comfortable and accepted but sadly this is impossible.....
The world is a place where it works you and not you work on it... Only the dreams and a strong faith ed and fearless person can live in the world and see it through the colors and wonders of God.
I want to that anything that you planned for me to be cause i know that plan will only work out for me and i have to grow and work for it.
God bless me grant me the positive approach in life while i make my way to your glory and back in your caring arms again...
Church... Friends... Band..... School.... Everything, at times i need people's acceptance but i learned a lot.... That things will not turn better if you just seek for humans acceptances in life as what you get in here is just only sins and lies. I need God but i can't reach to him when i always need him.
At times i feel like a failure that people whom i reached out or really want to fellowship just walk away. The damage i done is just simply i did nothing to continue that fellowship.... and i feel i disappointed God. I lost a lot of the excitement i have before. Cause i do not think i am good enough to fellowship any one anymore due to my sins and my emptiness.
I cry to God but when he is there i forgotten my cries but hungry for the blessing.... I hate this and i want to be a servant of God where people will not only learn but believe in themselves.
I think my life is just like a frog in a well, a frog who talks to anything or anyone who looked into it... Thinking the world out there is so much fun.. When your in the well you see the same thing and you feel all alone... But when your out there too long you want to be make the world be like the well you been staying for years... Feeling comfortable and accepted but sadly this is impossible.....
The world is a place where it works you and not you work on it... Only the dreams and a strong faith ed and fearless person can live in the world and see it through the colors and wonders of God.
I want to that anything that you planned for me to be cause i know that plan will only work out for me and i have to grow and work for it.
God bless me grant me the positive approach in life while i make my way to your glory and back in your caring arms again...
Friday, September 19, 2008
Make it or break it
I pray to God for this last test to help me to show what you want me to be and do for you.... The band wants to move on to make for the break to the scene.... Rock is something i like but i need your help Lord to show my vocals to be up for it and proof that i am meant to be it for you. =(
I am worried but i know i must not as i am really stuck i need your light and words to guide me back to track and move on and stand up for you...
In this i really pray in Jesus name....
I am worried but i know i must not as i am really stuck i need your light and words to guide me back to track and move on and stand up for you...
In this i really pray in Jesus name....
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
God I need your strength
I do not hide much about my life but band stuff i do... Recently i been sad and thinking a lot lately
Some comments by the band mates do affect my a lot but i know is for my owe good and i will work hard for it.....
This is the part of my life where i always got looked down....
I never did something in my life that would really make myself and my family proud at ALL..
When i was in primary school my PSLE result was not good at all and i went to Guangyang Secondary school. During that time there i did not make anything or won much only for the soccer and basketball for my NPCC. My soccer was the worse i worked so hard but no one trusted in my abilities and this really affected me a lot.
Every since i failed my O's i really have not made my parents proud...
My cousin is doing well and stuff i am not comparing but at times it is the fact.
I need to do well in something which i was never good at to prove others that i am the best, i am a very competitive person by nature and that could be my biggest problem
I had never met anyone who look at me and think i have a talent and would want to coach or train me.
A couple of them are : My Family, Paul , Singing Teacher, Jin Poh, some of my Godsisters & Dotes.(There are more sorry if i did not write it here)
But i must proof to others that i have changed and to work hard to be who i am and in Singapore the only way to be respected or to have a say is by making a mark in the things you are doing.
I believe in God and i know my role and plans he have for my but i always stand up stronger, but at times the people around me always look down and say is hard la... Or Ok la do not put too much hope into that.... Plus others like you know go join Singapore Idol and proof it.
At times is just the timing i am in gives so much preasure & and stress... Others will say is the way i look at things but honestly not always is my thinking that makes me so stress.
In band, since the band started i learnt guitar by myself and soon i got to learn singing through my own way and lucky my mum helped me to get my singing teacher..
Which all my band mates did the same learning by themseleves. But they are far better than me now... I tried so hard but once i improve they are much further away, at times i feel i let them down and at times i feel so tired. I tried and tried but sometimes is just not good enough. I really need to get my tone for my singing and i know God will be there. God please give me the strength to sing every song for you and to worship you. The power to touch the thousand that will hear me one day, about your love and about your kingdom.
Cause i know in this world no matter how much i try and try no one will see my effort at all as they only judge by the final result. But only you the creator of this world understands how i feel. Dear God i give my everything to you and for you to see my problems.
I need you as i do not have much friends that trully understands me.... =(
Some comments by the band mates do affect my a lot but i know is for my owe good and i will work hard for it.....
This is the part of my life where i always got looked down....
I never did something in my life that would really make myself and my family proud at ALL..
When i was in primary school my PSLE result was not good at all and i went to Guangyang Secondary school. During that time there i did not make anything or won much only for the soccer and basketball for my NPCC. My soccer was the worse i worked so hard but no one trusted in my abilities and this really affected me a lot.
Every since i failed my O's i really have not made my parents proud...
My cousin is doing well and stuff i am not comparing but at times it is the fact.
I need to do well in something which i was never good at to prove others that i am the best, i am a very competitive person by nature and that could be my biggest problem
I had never met anyone who look at me and think i have a talent and would want to coach or train me.
A couple of them are : My Family, Paul , Singing Teacher, Jin Poh, some of my Godsisters & Dotes.(There are more sorry if i did not write it here)
But i must proof to others that i have changed and to work hard to be who i am and in Singapore the only way to be respected or to have a say is by making a mark in the things you are doing.
I believe in God and i know my role and plans he have for my but i always stand up stronger, but at times the people around me always look down and say is hard la... Or Ok la do not put too much hope into that.... Plus others like you know go join Singapore Idol and proof it.
At times is just the timing i am in gives so much preasure & and stress... Others will say is the way i look at things but honestly not always is my thinking that makes me so stress.
In band, since the band started i learnt guitar by myself and soon i got to learn singing through my own way and lucky my mum helped me to get my singing teacher..
Which all my band mates did the same learning by themseleves. But they are far better than me now... I tried so hard but once i improve they are much further away, at times i feel i let them down and at times i feel so tired. I tried and tried but sometimes is just not good enough. I really need to get my tone for my singing and i know God will be there. God please give me the strength to sing every song for you and to worship you. The power to touch the thousand that will hear me one day, about your love and about your kingdom.
Cause i know in this world no matter how much i try and try no one will see my effort at all as they only judge by the final result. But only you the creator of this world understands how i feel. Dear God i give my everything to you and for you to see my problems.
I need you as i do not have much friends that trully understands me.... =(
Monday, September 08, 2008
RED HOT AND FURRY!!
Things i lo\/e about Elmo he is not only cute but he jokes are smart and simple.... Check this clips ! Oh and if your lucky i can do a Elmo re-\/oiced ring tone for you !! =)
Hi E\/erybody elmo here !! Hope you like elmo clips at the ro\/es show !!
Elmo Likes Wasabi !
Inter\/iew with Ro\/e 2007
Inter\/iew with Ro\/e 2008
Hi E\/erybody elmo here !! Hope you like elmo clips at the ro\/es show !!
Elmo Likes Wasabi !
Inter\/iew with Ro\/e 2007
Inter\/iew with Ro\/e 2008
Friday, September 05, 2008
My new Future mei ! =) Hopfully
GAS =) I really am \/ery happy to know you honestly !! Your the one out of two that really brightened my this whole week !! I was moody lonely and let alone EMO!
But today u flattered me so much haha and lo\/ed my photos !! Haha those we like my photos ha\/e great photography eyes ! ok?
Points you said about me !! Lolx ABIT NO SHAME TO POST IT OUT LIKE THAT BE !! IS MY FREAKING POST HAHA I CAN POST ANYTHING I WANT !! BUT NOT NUDE ! =)
1) you are quite optimistic and you are normal!
2)your've got a good character
3)outgoing & fun
4) great personality i guess ^^
5)and you're very good at heart, i can tell from the posts about god
And MORE !
i heard you can tell how a person is really like by looking at the way he treats animals
and you treat fifi really really nicely! =D
I saw your mission trip photos too, and the children look so happy to take photos with you
i like children too! but not many guys like kids, so i guess thats something different about you
Honestly thanks alot you really made my day and i do think God made you come into my life to gi\/e me the confidences i need to work and to obey him ! =)
But today u flattered me so much haha and lo\/ed my photos !! Haha those we like my photos ha\/e great photography eyes ! ok?
Points you said about me !! Lolx ABIT NO SHAME TO POST IT OUT LIKE THAT BE !! IS MY FREAKING POST HAHA I CAN POST ANYTHING I WANT !! BUT NOT NUDE ! =)
1) you are quite optimistic and you are normal!
2)your've got a good character
3)outgoing & fun
4) great personality i guess ^^
5)and you're very good at heart, i can tell from the posts about god
And MORE !
i heard you can tell how a person is really like by looking at the way he treats animals
and you treat fifi really really nicely! =D
I saw your mission trip photos too, and the children look so happy to take photos with you
i like children too! but not many guys like kids, so i guess thats something different about you
Honestly thanks alot you really made my day and i do think God made you come into my life to gi\/e me the confidences i need to work and to obey him ! =)
Monday, September 01, 2008
The Feeling Keeps Coming Back
The feeling of loneliness is back when i recall the places we go the times we had and the friends i used to hold on so dearly...
"I am really getting lonely as the days goes by....I get jealous when people smile more then i used to.....And i am thinking did i do anything wrong = (
I do not enjoy the life that i always do before all this things that happen.... I really do not know what i can do..
I hate to be alone....
"I am really getting lonely as the days goes by....I get jealous when people smile more then i used to.....And i am thinking did i do anything wrong = (
I do not enjoy the life that i always do before all this things that happen.... I really do not know what i can do..
I hate to be alone....
Sunday, August 31, 2008
Pandang Videos Up !!
This is the band's Video performance at the padang... !!
Do comment on the band ya? =) Hope you all would like it !!
Sunday, August 24, 2008
Dance Baby Dance 0h Baby Dance!!
The gig today was a rough one ha ha had a lot of obstacles on the way to it but the power of God have changed it ! It really Rain down like Cats & Dogs and i really do mean it the worse rain i have ever seen in Singapore since i was born can? Really crazy one!Plus I got caught in the super duper heavy rain can? Now i am starting to suffer for that flu and cold ! I HATE TO GET FLU !
Basically the Gig we arrived earlier and had to wait for the other performances to finish for our turn ! ha ha oh anyway we are the closing act for the event ! which was very happy about it as we can show what our band can do !
My dad & brother came today ! I want to sincerely thank : Paul, Bing Fuo, Angela, Daddy , Brother, Denise parents & friends for coming down to support us !!
Miss Hana, Mr Roy the whole round box crew, Ping ping ( the sweet organiser who is very cheery and friendly unlike the other one !!)
For giving this amazing gig for a good cause ! =) Sincerely thank you all =)
There was a band before us performing 2 songs one is Wherever you will go & a Malay song was not bad really ha ha though i told Joan it was like a mat band ha ha !!
Then was us ha ha The intro of the band was rather crappy ha ha as i was freaking nervous can !! ha ha But later as usual my mood to sing & perform live came out of me and many people were dancing and singing along the song !! Paul like Denise's second song Boston ha ha She really sang well and i teased her on stage ha ha
Who find Denise tan siew ho Cute !! HA HA and want to take her home ha ha she is just like a teddy bear ! And many people raised up their hands OK minus away Denise parents got about maybe 7 people i think !
The main thing that really warmed my heart was these two things
1) My dad and brother came ! I was surprised as i did not think they will be able to make it and when i was going to sing my song just in time my dad waved at me ! =) on stage i was very HAPPY !! WAHAHAHA
2) Seeing the more unfortunate people who have handicap in their lives dancing and calling their friends to come in front of the stage to sing and clap along was really !! I really mean this i nearly cried and was humbled by that scene.
Thus giving me more strength to work hard with my band and going for more gigs and doing more for charity and the needy......
God have spoken to me and i have faith in him and i will not waste my time on thinking if it was mend to be but rather what should i do now to honor him !
Thank you god for everything i love you guys and Client Number Nine
( i can see the bond we have in the band after this few months of joy together as a band and as friends) I simply love u guys !! =)
Got caught in the rain twice now i am suffering from flu and cold !! But is worth all the trouble of seeing others enjoying themselves
Basically the Gig we arrived earlier and had to wait for the other performances to finish for our turn ! ha ha oh anyway we are the closing act for the event ! which was very happy about it as we can show what our band can do !
My dad & brother came today ! I want to sincerely thank : Paul, Bing Fuo, Angela, Daddy , Brother, Denise parents & friends for coming down to support us !!
Miss Hana, Mr Roy the whole round box crew, Ping ping ( the sweet organiser who is very cheery and friendly unlike the other one !!)
For giving this amazing gig for a good cause ! =) Sincerely thank you all =)
There was a band before us performing 2 songs one is Wherever you will go & a Malay song was not bad really ha ha though i told Joan it was like a mat band ha ha !!
Then was us ha ha The intro of the band was rather crappy ha ha as i was freaking nervous can !! ha ha But later as usual my mood to sing & perform live came out of me and many people were dancing and singing along the song !! Paul like Denise's second song Boston ha ha She really sang well and i teased her on stage ha ha
Who find Denise tan siew ho Cute !! HA HA and want to take her home ha ha she is just like a teddy bear ! And many people raised up their hands OK minus away Denise parents got about maybe 7 people i think !
The main thing that really warmed my heart was these two things
1) My dad and brother came ! I was surprised as i did not think they will be able to make it and when i was going to sing my song just in time my dad waved at me ! =) on stage i was very HAPPY !! WAHAHAHA
2) Seeing the more unfortunate people who have handicap in their lives dancing and calling their friends to come in front of the stage to sing and clap along was really !! I really mean this i nearly cried and was humbled by that scene.
Thus giving me more strength to work hard with my band and going for more gigs and doing more for charity and the needy......
God have spoken to me and i have faith in him and i will not waste my time on thinking if it was mend to be but rather what should i do now to honor him !
Thank you god for everything i love you guys and Client Number Nine
( i can see the bond we have in the band after this few months of joy together as a band and as friends) I simply love u guys !! =)
Got caught in the rain twice now i am suffering from flu and cold !! But is worth all the trouble of seeing others enjoying themselves
Thursday, August 21, 2008
Everyone COME ON DOWN !! =)
This Sunday will be a special day to me and my band ! = ) the gig that we been waiting for is finally here !! I can't believe it haha ! I very excited and you know a tiny weeny bit nervous haha do not know how the crowd would be like and the number of people going to watch !!
And i am not sure what bands are going !! Hmm well all i know is i am going to put up a show !! Sadly not too sure how many of my friends are coming.. haizz forget about ravin i don't think he ever remembers at all haizz... well anyway do come down
Info: Padang events starts at 10am to 3pm (my band time slot is 2pm -2.30 pm) firework festival !!
And i am not sure what bands are going !! Hmm well all i know is i am going to put up a show !! Sadly not too sure how many of my friends are coming.. haizz forget about ravin i don't think he ever remembers at all haizz... well anyway do come down
Info: Padang events starts at 10am to 3pm (my band time slot is 2pm -2.30 pm) firework festival !!
Sunday, August 10, 2008
National Day
Well the only good thing about National Day is that Jin Poh is part of the army contingent so i am happy for him as he seems excited about it ! =)
But haiz saturday without RB or band is sure a big blow man haiz.....The gig is really coming very soon !! 24 of August can !! And i really hate the stupid song Wake up call i have to do for the gig haiz..., Even the band do not like the song really ! Damn wasted one song for the gig...
Anyway i am scared of the gig because of this song but sadly i do not have a song that the band would love to replace wake up call.... Man i should really listen to more music which i am actually mostly on 98.7 Fm but haiz too late to do a new song now maybe be a bigger risk i must say.
I also wish Wei Peng to have a great weekend his first weekend out of the BMT haha... Surely he must have slimmed down alot ! haha which is good news for him he wants to slim down.
But was rather happy to have a nice family dinner once again i really enjoyed it. I want to treat my parents to a movie screening soon like money not enough 2 though is lame but i think this is the only few shows that may interest them =) so got to save up money !
But haiz saturday without RB or band is sure a big blow man haiz.....The gig is really coming very soon !! 24 of August can !! And i really hate the stupid song Wake up call i have to do for the gig haiz..., Even the band do not like the song really ! Damn wasted one song for the gig...
Anyway i am scared of the gig because of this song but sadly i do not have a song that the band would love to replace wake up call.... Man i should really listen to more music which i am actually mostly on 98.7 Fm but haiz too late to do a new song now maybe be a bigger risk i must say.
I also wish Wei Peng to have a great weekend his first weekend out of the BMT haha... Surely he must have slimmed down alot ! haha which is good news for him he wants to slim down.
But was rather happy to have a nice family dinner once again i really enjoyed it. I want to treat my parents to a movie screening soon like money not enough 2 though is lame but i think this is the only few shows that may interest them =) so got to save up money !
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
Standing On The Top
If i was on the top of the tallest building now what would i do?
Jump down and very sure i have ended all my problems and loneliness i have inside?
Take a deep breath and see the world from the top and remember how the feeling is like and wake up in my life trying to be the top again?
Hmm this two are options in my life.. One step and all ends or all begins...
I want to know what is the best that God have to offer me.
I know i will be foolish to jump but risky to push on and might get even more hurt?
If i have faith i would thanks God for the chance to see the world and go back down and work up to see that feelings that God wanted me to be a History Maker in my life and others...
I have been thinking....
And i really am tired...
I need the fresh air i breath everyday when i was not so tired like this....
If i can i would be the star in other people life and help them to build their dreams which God wanted them to have...
This Joy is very different and hard to come by...
But for all the gift God have given and tested me...
How can i give it all up now?
I WANT TO RISE BACK UP
Be who i was that God made me...
I want to be the army that God needs now for this sinful world
A place where Sins are the air and devils are the lords....
But there is a King who is has the power to kill over all but chooses the path to let freedom be the
line between Good & Bad...
For this i thanks God =)
I Want to be part of the HOLY ARMY !
Ansel have risen back and beware Sinful people i will shoot the shit out of you guys that you have no idea what is a sin is and never will anymore !!
Jump down and very sure i have ended all my problems and loneliness i have inside?
Take a deep breath and see the world from the top and remember how the feeling is like and wake up in my life trying to be the top again?
Hmm this two are options in my life.. One step and all ends or all begins...
I want to know what is the best that God have to offer me.
I know i will be foolish to jump but risky to push on and might get even more hurt?
If i have faith i would thanks God for the chance to see the world and go back down and work up to see that feelings that God wanted me to be a History Maker in my life and others...
I have been thinking....
And i really am tired...
I need the fresh air i breath everyday when i was not so tired like this....
If i can i would be the star in other people life and help them to build their dreams which God wanted them to have...
This Joy is very different and hard to come by...
But for all the gift God have given and tested me...
How can i give it all up now?
I WANT TO RISE BACK UP
Be who i was that God made me...
I want to be the army that God needs now for this sinful world
A place where Sins are the air and devils are the lords....
But there is a King who is has the power to kill over all but chooses the path to let freedom be the
line between Good & Bad...
For this i thanks God =)
I Want to be part of the HOLY ARMY !
Ansel have risen back and beware Sinful people i will shoot the shit out of you guys that you have no idea what is a sin is and never will anymore !!
Friday, July 25, 2008
Bleeding Inside
The times are getting harder without talking to you at all.... I wonder how have you been and have you totally forgotten about me...? I can tell your with your friends hanging out....
For me? I don't have anymore recently i had a lot of anger inside of me and i shouted at Jp..Though i really did not want to but i really was lost and sad. Deep down i miss the days i can chat happily with you and knowing your always by my side....
I respect your decision but at times i really missed you. The places we go and the things we did still remains in my mind. I so lost without you but i been relying on God this few days and i feel better.....I am not doing this for you but i really want to grow and get back to God... And i believe God will give me an answer...It may be good or bad but i am going to accept it....
I am sorry JP i really lost my mind that day... The stress in school, friends and her really hurt me alot and affected me to a point i have changed
But i am picking myself up again with more quiet time with God telling him my problems and praying for everyone....
God had made plans for me since i was born and plans after i leave this world and i want to touch and draw everyone to him as he changed me and my life is lived for him.
For me? I don't have anymore recently i had a lot of anger inside of me and i shouted at Jp..Though i really did not want to but i really was lost and sad. Deep down i miss the days i can chat happily with you and knowing your always by my side....
I respect your decision but at times i really missed you. The places we go and the things we did still remains in my mind. I so lost without you but i been relying on God this few days and i feel better.....I am not doing this for you but i really want to grow and get back to God... And i believe God will give me an answer...It may be good or bad but i am going to accept it....
I am sorry JP i really lost my mind that day... The stress in school, friends and her really hurt me alot and affected me to a point i have changed
But i am picking myself up again with more quiet time with God telling him my problems and praying for everyone....
God had made plans for me since i was born and plans after i leave this world and i want to touch and draw everyone to him as he changed me and my life is lived for him.
Sunday, July 20, 2008
I have sinned and i am sorry!
The days have past and i have not change....
I really want to but i can't
i pray to God for forgiveness i really love him
I want him to know i care of the things i have done
But i need to change and walk to him
I'm sorry for everything i have done
Dear lord free me from the devil and hold me firm and let me
Be you child whom listens and love others the way you always loved me
I really want to but i can't
i pray to God for forgiveness i really love him
I want him to know i care of the things i have done
But i need to change and walk to him
I'm sorry for everything i have done
Dear lord free me from the devil and hold me firm and let me
Be you child whom listens and love others the way you always loved me
Thursday, July 17, 2008
Still In queue
I thank you for the silence between us......
This is better for me and you
The times we had seems so fun
though is short but still a memory for me
I was selfish and young
The joy which i thought was laughter are just scars
Scars that can only be healed by God
The things we said were things we can't do
IS hard not to see and talk to you
For that i know i have sinned to you
but i must hear from god in order to be with you
This is better for me and you
The times we had seems so fun
though is short but still a memory for me
I was selfish and young
The joy which i thought was laughter are just scars
Scars that can only be healed by God
The things we said were things we can't do
IS hard not to see and talk to you
For that i know i have sinned to you
but i must hear from god in order to be with you
Wednesday, July 09, 2008
Darryl's Day out
Darryl's Birthday was on 5 July and we celebrated on 6 haha !! But we had lots of fun !! The whole band came and ate at fish & cold ! haha... Oh well anyway this are the few pictures i took and Pam took ! Maybe blur but is ok it was very fun !! Do enjoy the photos ya?
Remy Jumping for JOY !
Me being GAY!
JP Being BENG !
Nise being Erm ? EGG cited !!
Botak Being JOAN !
Darryl Being CHICKY!!!
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The group Joan, Denise, Pam,Darryl,JP, Remy & D'Wee
JP Relaxing
BORED?
ON DRUGS !
Joan & Pam
The Band !!
COOL HAIR !! BUT GONE !!
Ah Beng and Punk Gal !
Be4 Joan Shaves the day !!
EGG_CITING !!
Remy Jumping for JOY !
Me being GAY!
JP Being BENG !
Nise being Erm ? EGG cited !!
Botak Being JOAN !
Darryl Being CHICKY!!!
]The group Joan, Denise, Pam,Darryl,JP, Remy & D'Wee
JP Relaxing
BORED?
ON DRUGS !
Joan & Pam
The Band !!
COOL HAIR !! BUT GONE !!
Ah Beng and Punk Gal !
Be4 Joan Shaves the day !!
EGG_CITING !!
Sunday, July 06, 2008
Looking back my past
Today i felt sad and happy but it was at this point that i started looking back on my life...
From sec school life to now.. Though there are many things i wish to change and redo but i am very happy and blessed with what i have now... My life, my friends, my church mates, my god sisters...Etc..
I learn that when helping others you help yourself too ! I look at others and i learn how to be an example to others and how to cheer others up... My life always been smiling my hurting inside..
So i have to be a happy guy thinking that i can make a differences in my life and other people's life =)
I i really wished the friends that i was close before would be back with me... My god sisters too val.. Tel... Zoey...Zoe.....Angelina....Rebecca....and many more those times you listened to my problems really gave me the confidence i have today...
Well though you guy will not be reading this but i really truly miss you guys so much.....
Times have changed after sec sch my closest friends i have now are darryl, jin poh, remy, denise, joan, cheris, ravin, wei peng, jian ming maybe janson? This are the people who really know and understand the things i done..
Sadly many have come and go but not knowing that everyone played a part in my life. And the hurts you cost in me really hurt me....But i would be so happy to forgive and wishing to be forgiven, If things was so much easier.... From the things i have done wrong i am sorry. My life is not perfect but with you guys around you really shape it up..... At times during night i wonder do anyone think about me and smile before they sleep? Well God surely do but other then that who really do? My family ? My friends?
To me i just want to be remembered for the good things and people can smile and really come and ask me how are you in a really sincere way and really meaning it...Haiz those thoughts have driven me into a world of loneliness that i had being in.....
The peanut game
Amk park near the Mac
My works
From sec school life to now.. Though there are many things i wish to change and redo but i am very happy and blessed with what i have now... My life, my friends, my church mates, my god sisters...Etc..
I learn that when helping others you help yourself too ! I look at others and i learn how to be an example to others and how to cheer others up... My life always been smiling my hurting inside..
So i have to be a happy guy thinking that i can make a differences in my life and other people's life =)
I i really wished the friends that i was close before would be back with me... My god sisters too val.. Tel... Zoey...Zoe.....Angelina....Rebecca....and many more those times you listened to my problems really gave me the confidence i have today...
Well though you guy will not be reading this but i really truly miss you guys so much.....
Times have changed after sec sch my closest friends i have now are darryl, jin poh, remy, denise, joan, cheris, ravin, wei peng, jian ming maybe janson? This are the people who really know and understand the things i done..
Sadly many have come and go but not knowing that everyone played a part in my life. And the hurts you cost in me really hurt me....But i would be so happy to forgive and wishing to be forgiven, If things was so much easier.... From the things i have done wrong i am sorry. My life is not perfect but with you guys around you really shape it up..... At times during night i wonder do anyone think about me and smile before they sleep? Well God surely do but other then that who really do? My family ? My friends?
To me i just want to be remembered for the good things and people can smile and really come and ask me how are you in a really sincere way and really meaning it...Haiz those thoughts have driven me into a world of loneliness that i had being in.....
The peanut game
Amk park near the Mac
My works
Sunday, June 29, 2008
My mission trip was fruitful
Bored and not wanting to say much been rather lonely this few days and the thought of going back to school where there are not much friends makes me sad..... =(
My mission trip photos..
Through this trip i learn t, to be a better person you must step out of ur own self and look at the people around you. I have seen the up and downs in my life but i know that there is someone always there for me and willing to pull me up when i am down.. I will change and make others who are in trouble be happy again.. This i promise you my dear lord. =)
The wonders you do many have seen but only your words and love can touch everyone not me not my church, but only you dear lord
My mission trip photos..
Through this trip i learn t, to be a better person you must step out of ur own self and look at the people around you. I have seen the up and downs in my life but i know that there is someone always there for me and willing to pull me up when i am down.. I will change and make others who are in trouble be happy again.. This i promise you my dear lord. =)
The wonders you do many have seen but only your words and love can touch everyone not me not my church, but only you dear lord
Sunday, June 01, 2008
Things People say !
Honestly today was a nice but a little less lively than before.. No band jam no Round Box... Things i always look forward in a new week ! Well i had a great day with Jian Ming, Wei Peng & Ravin those where the good old days of Winning eleven Tournament ! And I have declared the WINNER for once again And Ya let me say this : "Benfica Who??? " haha
I met the "Band" (without funny and cute denise, Crazy WHAHAHHAHA Joan and Sayang sayang)
we went to Esplanade and found out that the band playing at the waterfront was more of a Acoustic Guitar band so was kinda boring... Most importantly we were hungry !! Haha went to eat Prata and went to Timbre... We finally saw a band playing at there for once..!! Never been there before haha but honestly love to be playing at that place for the people ! Though the stage is super small !! haha
After the bands first set of songs we decided to go to look for more bands playing a bars or pubs.. We came across this Bar called "Actors" Jam Bar ! You can go and jam on the stage just like that..! But i was F****ing Pissed by the service there... No lights and keep asking us to order drinks, when we said later we will order... They keep coming every 15 mins to ask you guys want to order drinks !
I was like WTF you do not understand by LATER !! We asked if we can jam and the guy said yes ! But here is the F***ing thing... He added but you all must order drink in order to jam... I was like ok no wonder the whole bar is empty !! Really i have not seen a single customer coming in to your LOUSY and Dark bar where the service is more like forcing you to buy a drink !! F*** You all Never ever going back to the stupid place ever again !!
I want to jam new songs and do new things with the band since we have cleared all the major Gigs !! More songs more gigs !! haha Please do something next week i am very hungry for more !! ( That is what she said)
X P
Happy Birthday to Yilin, Jacq Yet lim & Rachel Yee mun !! Wishing you all the best for your everything !
I met the "Band" (without funny and cute denise, Crazy WHAHAHHAHA Joan and Sayang sayang)
we went to Esplanade and found out that the band playing at the waterfront was more of a Acoustic Guitar band so was kinda boring... Most importantly we were hungry !! Haha went to eat Prata and went to Timbre... We finally saw a band playing at there for once..!! Never been there before haha but honestly love to be playing at that place for the people ! Though the stage is super small !! haha
After the bands first set of songs we decided to go to look for more bands playing a bars or pubs.. We came across this Bar called "Actors" Jam Bar ! You can go and jam on the stage just like that..! But i was F****ing Pissed by the service there... No lights and keep asking us to order drinks, when we said later we will order... They keep coming every 15 mins to ask you guys want to order drinks !
I was like WTF you do not understand by LATER !! We asked if we can jam and the guy said yes ! But here is the F***ing thing... He added but you all must order drink in order to jam... I was like ok no wonder the whole bar is empty !! Really i have not seen a single customer coming in to your LOUSY and Dark bar where the service is more like forcing you to buy a drink !! F*** You all Never ever going back to the stupid place ever again !!
I want to jam new songs and do new things with the band since we have cleared all the major Gigs !! More songs more gigs !! haha Please do something next week i am very hungry for more !! ( That is what she said)
X P
Happy Birthday to Yilin, Jacq Yet lim & Rachel Yee mun !! Wishing you all the best for your everything !
Monday, May 26, 2008
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY GIFT !!
I was thinking that my birthday this year was like erm..... One of the crappiest of all as on the actual birthday i was at home sleeping.... But was happy that i had spent more time with my family...
Thanks to sayang she really made my birthday one of the most unforgettable one... honestly !! During that period i was in a very bad mood over school problems and stuff.. I was really feeling pissed at a point that i start to hack care already. Really some people who seems to understand that knows how badly i reacted to that. But last saturday, We had a band outing and i meant the whole band plus Pamela & Cheris !!
I was like super duper happy ! Having her beside me i also feel happy and i also can be my very own self....
I was like feeling so lonely at first cause after the morning jam Darryl. Pam & french went to see Red Rain ( sorry pam i was not able to join as i need to go church i have skipped too many times already) Leaving me and Denise Tan Siew Ho aka snuffles ! haha
We had a damn expensive meal at *********** bugger don't even want to mention the stupid fast food name. Then at 1.15, Denise said she need to go to meet her friends. Then i was like ok lor..Sad sad i called sayang and asked where is she, she was late and she just told me she needed to buy something important for someone which at first i thought it was me but again she already bought me my birthday gift already. So i thought maybe is a girlfriend thingy and was like well ok then... i waited at church and had a good chat with David until sayang cabbed down to my church i ran out of church can? haha cause i scared she will be lost !! Cause i also explain things like very confusing for her ! ha ha
Oh well fast forward we met up with the band and i introduced Denise to Sayang and they even acted that they did not know each other very very well !! we had a nice but very expensive meal at hooters !! Sayang is not impressed by the CUP size of the girls at Hooters ! haha well then we went to Harry's and enjoyed the Jazz music until 11.15 we had to leave and someone pushed a bag of stuff to me under the table at first i thought it was like Darryl's one or something but i peeped inside it was a FREAKING CONDENSER MIC CAN !! ALL THAT I WAS ALWAYS DREAMING ABT AND LATER FOUND OUT IT WAS SAYANG WHO ASK THE BAND TO CHIP IN FOR THE GIFT ! I was honestly touched by Sayang and the band who was like being a family thingy ! =)
Now i must think of a part two present for sayang !
Honestly thank you
Dear sayang !
Darryl and Pam
Jin poh and French for the time spent with me.
Denise for chatting with me and helping Sayang to buy the Present
And Joan for coming down for the dinner and being crazy !! Keep being crazy love that ! haha =)
Thanks to sayang she really made my birthday one of the most unforgettable one... honestly !! During that period i was in a very bad mood over school problems and stuff.. I was really feeling pissed at a point that i start to hack care already. Really some people who seems to understand that knows how badly i reacted to that. But last saturday, We had a band outing and i meant the whole band plus Pamela & Cheris !!
I was like super duper happy ! Having her beside me i also feel happy and i also can be my very own self....
I was like feeling so lonely at first cause after the morning jam Darryl. Pam & french went to see Red Rain ( sorry pam i was not able to join as i need to go church i have skipped too many times already) Leaving me and Denise Tan Siew Ho aka snuffles ! haha
We had a damn expensive meal at *********** bugger don't even want to mention the stupid fast food name. Then at 1.15, Denise said she need to go to meet her friends. Then i was like ok lor..Sad sad i called sayang and asked where is she, she was late and she just told me she needed to buy something important for someone which at first i thought it was me but again she already bought me my birthday gift already. So i thought maybe is a girlfriend thingy and was like well ok then... i waited at church and had a good chat with David until sayang cabbed down to my church i ran out of church can? haha cause i scared she will be lost !! Cause i also explain things like very confusing for her ! ha ha
Oh well fast forward we met up with the band and i introduced Denise to Sayang and they even acted that they did not know each other very very well !! we had a nice but very expensive meal at hooters !! Sayang is not impressed by the CUP size of the girls at Hooters ! haha well then we went to Harry's and enjoyed the Jazz music until 11.15 we had to leave and someone pushed a bag of stuff to me under the table at first i thought it was like Darryl's one or something but i peeped inside it was a FREAKING CONDENSER MIC CAN !! ALL THAT I WAS ALWAYS DREAMING ABT AND LATER FOUND OUT IT WAS SAYANG WHO ASK THE BAND TO CHIP IN FOR THE GIFT ! I was honestly touched by Sayang and the band who was like being a family thingy ! =)
Now i must think of a part two present for sayang !
Honestly thank you
Dear sayang !
Darryl and Pam
Jin poh and French for the time spent with me.
Denise for chatting with me and helping Sayang to buy the Present
And Joan for coming down for the dinner and being crazy !! Keep being crazy love that ! haha =)
Monday, May 19, 2008
Craving For MORE !! =)
We did the gig well !! Anyway we took some videos for you guys...! The whole band played super super well ! Denise sang Boston so well , everyone clapped ! haha... Joan , Jin Poh , Remy & Darryl enjoyed themselves alot !! Me haha i did not screw up at all !! I never went off key but only for One Way for one part...!
When you say nothing at all
I Shot The Sheriff
|
Boston
Every Breath You Take
There are even more on youtube all thanks to dear Pamela for taking the video & Denise for posting it up !
Well we are all hoping to have another performance soon ! Do contact me or tag me if you have a gig which needs a BAND !! =)
JOAN BE CRAZY AGAIN !! HAHA I LOVE IT !!
When you say nothing at all
I Shot The Sheriff
|
Boston
Every Breath You Take
There are even more on youtube all thanks to dear Pamela for taking the video & Denise for posting it up !
Well we are all hoping to have another performance soon ! Do contact me or tag me if you have a gig which needs a BAND !! =)
JOAN BE CRAZY AGAIN !! HAHA I LOVE IT !!
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
Happy and still happy ! =)
My pre birthday dinner+my Mum's mother's day, we went to pastamania !! Not a true fan of that but is okay... I believe that having a nice dinner together is the most important of all... Honestly i was very happy today ! My dad and brother was telling me that they are planning to buy for me a SLR camera !! COOL ! Well i was thinking of a PS3 but is expensive when i buy my games so ya !! =)
Today i saw my mum holding my dad's hands on the way down from the stairs i honestly never seen them doing that but it was really sweet =) weirdly to couples haha one in front my parents and behind is my brother and his girlfriend so weird you know haha like I'm the only single one !!
I am really excited but yet scared about the may 17 gig ! What if i screw up ! Man in front of 600 people i will be super ashamed !! ARRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!
Today i saw my mum holding my dad's hands on the way down from the stairs i honestly never seen them doing that but it was really sweet =) weirdly to couples haha one in front my parents and behind is my brother and his girlfriend so weird you know haha like I'm the only single one !!
I am really excited but yet scared about the may 17 gig ! What if i screw up ! Man in front of 600 people i will be super ashamed !! ARRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!
Monday, May 12, 2008
Happy Mothet's Day...!
Weird my mother is not at Singapore for mother's day...!! Well she is at Batam for a singing competition ! Well all I can hope for is for her to win ! =)
Stuff don't seem to go my bands way at all... CHIJ GIG is can canceled due to some really stupid planning...
1) A gig with No Amps?
2)No key board?
3)A shitty time slot at 12.. Where we asked for 2.30 onwards
4)Favoring of other local bands?
Worse Ben & Jerry's?
1) First time i heard a small crap place need 80 to 100 songs ? ( where you most prop need to play only one hr or less?
2)Wanting only acoustic performances?
3) Hot Girls working there but F****ed up mangers !!
Things that made me sad...
1) Saw shi pei ( my very first steady relationship) at Yishun mrt and she said "HI"
hours later she called me when she is home and told me this " "Erm ansel can you don't contact me anymore? Cause i told my boyfriend i met you..And he asked if i(shi pei) still got sms or call once in awhile? She said yes ! Her boyfriend later said can you don't contact him anymore? that is why she called me asking me not to call her or even sms her anymore... ! Worse she said we are still friends" ! Ya friends who don't contact are not friends !! really I find it stupid i dun meet her often at all.. I never contact her like a damn Bloody long time and she ask me not to talk to her anymore ! What a boyfriend you have man..! Worse it was me whom i help you took his number and made you guys a pair... And your boyfriend will be jealous of me for what !! Stupid people...
3)Sayang was sad and she have been having a rather bad time tons of works and not meeting for a long time soon to have affected me. Worse i was not able to go and see her baptism ism today...I have jamming :( ( not that i hate to go with the band)
4)Band wise most of the plans don't seem to work out only leaving the May 17 gig.. I like that gig a lot really 600 people is surely a lot for a first time band ! But wanted to go for the CHIJ gig for the youth and the new songs i worked so hard for... ( No more gigs left after the May 17 one.. Hoping for more)
5)After May band will be super quiet trust me... Darryl is going overseas and so is denise... Jin Poh have army stuff which is going to be busy... French (benny) will most properly going to study hard for the O's. Joan and me left for Round Box... So we can cancel it ?
6)Not going to church at all for 3 weeks not only made me feel bad but i lost touch of my love with god.. Losing my temper easily ! I want to change for the better !
7)School have been very bad all my group mates of the previous project Love 101 have more or less lost interest...Only leaving me Janson and Matt... The others seem well busy with work and other stuff? I feel angry when young people go to work and just skip school for money where they do not need it for emergency stuff...
8) Been very bored at home no one to chat with and play with.. Honestly i regret buying the tennis racket i have not used it at all...
Things that cheered me up a little bit..
1) Esplanade bands was rather disappointing which means my bands hope of performing there in the future is going to be much much higher...
2) Next week will be fun going to CHIJ Tpy to see friends and bands with my bandmates... =
3) Ravin and Wei Peng maybe staying over...(Darryl is set to stay over after the performance on 17 may
Looking on the ratio you can see clearly that my bad stuff are much much more than the good ones...
Sadness i making me feeling more left out ! And i starting to not give a damn about my birthday at all.... =(
Stuff don't seem to go my bands way at all... CHIJ GIG is can canceled due to some really stupid planning...
1) A gig with No Amps?
2)No key board?
3)A shitty time slot at 12.. Where we asked for 2.30 onwards
4)Favoring of other local bands?
Worse Ben & Jerry's?
1) First time i heard a small crap place need 80 to 100 songs ? ( where you most prop need to play only one hr or less?
2)Wanting only acoustic performances?
3) Hot Girls working there but F****ed up mangers !!
Things that made me sad...
1) Saw shi pei ( my very first steady relationship) at Yishun mrt and she said "HI"
hours later she called me when she is home and told me this " "Erm ansel can you don't contact me anymore? Cause i told my boyfriend i met you..And he asked if i(shi pei) still got sms or call once in awhile? She said yes ! Her boyfriend later said can you don't contact him anymore? that is why she called me asking me not to call her or even sms her anymore... ! Worse she said we are still friends" ! Ya friends who don't contact are not friends !! really I find it stupid i dun meet her often at all.. I never contact her like a damn Bloody long time and she ask me not to talk to her anymore ! What a boyfriend you have man..! Worse it was me whom i help you took his number and made you guys a pair... And your boyfriend will be jealous of me for what !! Stupid people...
3)Sayang was sad and she have been having a rather bad time tons of works and not meeting for a long time soon to have affected me. Worse i was not able to go and see her baptism ism today...I have jamming :( ( not that i hate to go with the band)
4)Band wise most of the plans don't seem to work out only leaving the May 17 gig.. I like that gig a lot really 600 people is surely a lot for a first time band ! But wanted to go for the CHIJ gig for the youth and the new songs i worked so hard for... ( No more gigs left after the May 17 one.. Hoping for more)
5)After May band will be super quiet trust me... Darryl is going overseas and so is denise... Jin Poh have army stuff which is going to be busy... French (benny) will most properly going to study hard for the O's. Joan and me left for Round Box... So we can cancel it ?
6)Not going to church at all for 3 weeks not only made me feel bad but i lost touch of my love with god.. Losing my temper easily ! I want to change for the better !
7)School have been very bad all my group mates of the previous project Love 101 have more or less lost interest...Only leaving me Janson and Matt... The others seem well busy with work and other stuff? I feel angry when young people go to work and just skip school for money where they do not need it for emergency stuff...
8) Been very bored at home no one to chat with and play with.. Honestly i regret buying the tennis racket i have not used it at all...
Things that cheered me up a little bit..
1) Esplanade bands was rather disappointing which means my bands hope of performing there in the future is going to be much much higher...
2) Next week will be fun going to CHIJ Tpy to see friends and bands with my bandmates... =
3) Ravin and Wei Peng maybe staying over...(Darryl is set to stay over after the performance on 17 may
Looking on the ratio you can see clearly that my bad stuff are much much more than the good ones...
Sadness i making me feeling more left out ! And i starting to not give a damn about my birthday at all.... =(
Thursday, May 08, 2008
Time is Near
The gigs are coming soon and i mean really soon !! is like next weeK !! I'm scared not because of the crowds but the songs i am going to do... ! Their hard for me as some i am not able really sing the main melody !! Damn really scared now... But i will try my very best i believe god will help me out with the rest ! =)
The are times i wonder do relationships change people for the better or the worse... My classmate seem to become worse... Not coming to school and be very late for class and stuff... At times i wonder what is the best age for them to know that studies are important?? Well anyway i do not care much anymore is their life and if they want to screw their lives i can help either...
My birthday is coming up but i really don't want any big parties really... A nice small gathering saying Hi to all my friends and godsisters if any of them remember or still care for me at all? Haiz... I just want to be remembered that is all... But most of them seems very very unlikely they would even sms or call me wishing me a Happy Birthday....
The are times i wonder do relationships change people for the better or the worse... My classmate seem to become worse... Not coming to school and be very late for class and stuff... At times i wonder what is the best age for them to know that studies are important?? Well anyway i do not care much anymore is their life and if they want to screw their lives i can help either...
My birthday is coming up but i really don't want any big parties really... A nice small gathering saying Hi to all my friends and godsisters if any of them remember or still care for me at all? Haiz... I just want to be remembered that is all... But most of them seems very very unlikely they would even sms or call me wishing me a Happy Birthday....
Thursday, May 01, 2008
Lowest Point in life
Today we had jamming for our may 16 gig at chij tpy... We met Ad again haha man old man good old times and she still remembered us =) that was really sweet to know anyway forgotten to bring Darryl's effects... Crap need to waste Darryl's money to let me take cab home.... But i with Remy and Ravin took train back to my place first then from there we took cab down to BOON !! Well felt sad for the taxi driver.... He forgotten to press the meter and we got like $4.00 cheaper then expected... =)
Well it started off well, I and Denise was very hyper but after singing her song Better than me by Hinder, she was tired haha cause the song was too high for her.... But she did well ! =) Don't worry ya? haha Now is my turn Open your eyes by Alter Bridge i was like thinking should be easy until i remember the key for singing the super high part which is the bridge was really CRAZY !!
I had only one song to sing for the whole jamming session. There were other songs i need to do like When the stars goes blue.... But i suck at harmony and i really feel useless.... Songs like Boston where I tried to sing before i cannot get the last part.... Denise learned it !! And i felt i never gave the band my very best cause all this songs I was told to learn before but halfway was not done.... My singing for youth songs have been really really hard for me.... How i wish at times i can sing or even scream like how the crazy Youths do at DXO !!
I felt left out after my songs cause I could not help in Denise singing i will make it worse if i tried
but i rather not.... =(
I felt like if I was out of the band? They can do much better than me.... Cause my guitar playing have stopped... I just sing.... Denise can sing too she have her tone and most people will agree she is good !! =) Which i am glad to have Denise ! I'm not jealous i just felt i cannot do much more for the band,.... Oldies i can ! but Youth songs haizz..... I tried and tried but cannot get it right....
But after leaving the jamming i was back to normal self... Cause i will never take anything from my band problem into my close friend friendship i have with Darryl =) I love him.... The crazy and whacky man,... My brother when i was always hurt....
I will try to do my best and i hope i will do my best and proof to myself that i can sing well and people will look up to me !!
God i need your love and your strength and the will as i am as fragile as I'm a sinner.... I will lift my eyes to the the maker of the mountain I can't climb....
Your the maker and i need your strength !!
Well it started off well, I and Denise was very hyper but after singing her song Better than me by Hinder, she was tired haha cause the song was too high for her.... But she did well ! =) Don't worry ya? haha Now is my turn Open your eyes by Alter Bridge i was like thinking should be easy until i remember the key for singing the super high part which is the bridge was really CRAZY !!
I had only one song to sing for the whole jamming session. There were other songs i need to do like When the stars goes blue.... But i suck at harmony and i really feel useless.... Songs like Boston where I tried to sing before i cannot get the last part.... Denise learned it !! And i felt i never gave the band my very best cause all this songs I was told to learn before but halfway was not done.... My singing for youth songs have been really really hard for me.... How i wish at times i can sing or even scream like how the crazy Youths do at DXO !!
I felt left out after my songs cause I could not help in Denise singing i will make it worse if i tried
but i rather not.... =(
I felt like if I was out of the band? They can do much better than me.... Cause my guitar playing have stopped... I just sing.... Denise can sing too she have her tone and most people will agree she is good !! =) Which i am glad to have Denise ! I'm not jealous i just felt i cannot do much more for the band,.... Oldies i can ! but Youth songs haizz..... I tried and tried but cannot get it right....
But after leaving the jamming i was back to normal self... Cause i will never take anything from my band problem into my close friend friendship i have with Darryl =) I love him.... The crazy and whacky man,... My brother when i was always hurt....
I will try to do my best and i hope i will do my best and proof to myself that i can sing well and people will look up to me !!
God i need your love and your strength and the will as i am as fragile as I'm a sinner.... I will lift my eyes to the the maker of the mountain I can't climb....
Your the maker and i need your strength !!
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